Drifting

The past weeks were full of talks and insights shared. The last rules review is going to evolute into the next one, due in two days.

The new "contract over rules over will over wishes" system needs more finetuning. The nature of the dynamic is shifting. Sexually she is submitting deeper, closer to her edge, while in the other area's she can be more bratty and playful.

We noticed that during long workdays, or travel, when I am away, the dynamic is stressed, and she has difficulty to stay focussed. Drifting off into the gardens of the castle, doubting her actions, doubting if she is a good submissive. I started to challenge her wearing ben-wa balls when I am not home. No enforced times, just wearing them and reporting to me how long she is able to keep them in. This creates layers of connection, anticipation, and lust. So far it is working well.

Comming home to my dripping wet needy cunt is a great welcome. And treating her like a fucktoy a great release. Making her wear her onesie backwards, spreading her legs, lifting her shackled wrists. Hearing her breathing heavily as the toys are inserted. Her moans and wriggling are useless. It is when the tears of submission flow that she drifts off to subspace ready to be fucked like a ragdoll.

Of Wolf and Man

Rules revision was skipped last week due to a busy schedule, but there is changes ahead. Sometimes you can feel that.

Our short trip together showed me I need to be Dominant, I need to plot out ways to jump her. Triggering her into submission. Beat her into it if must be.

Past weeks, with a lot less scene-interaction. I am watching her struggle, emotionally on edge.

I am changing the game. I make her do things she did not do before. Make her say things she would not say before. I use her for my pleasure.

Fuck her when she is very tired. In her tight ass when she does not expect it. Not cumming inside her as I did before, but splashing my cum onto her face, tits, legs, wherever.

It is all within the established boundaries, but I am wandering around. Mixing it up to catch her by surprise and dominate her by forcing her into awkward and humiliating scenes. Using little or no pain.

I am not sure yet, but it seems I am using humiliation to satisfy my sadism. And pain or the threat of pain, to enforce it.


I will need to research this ... cause the filthy, dirty, disgusting, kinky, dark ideas that are arising from this direction make me wonder what kind of animal I am ... *growl*

The wolf inside is rearing his head ...

Of Wolf and Man - Metallica

Just a couple of cents

My oh my, Just going to ramble some thoughts out there ...

My sub is not a pain-masochist.
For me the Sadism is not inflicting pain - per se.

I enjoy watching emotional struggle.

This can be by forcing her to write about something she dislikes, to force her to orgasm when she doesn't feel like it, to make her do things that she finds difficult. I enjoy her emotion when her face looks up at me and I can read from her eyes: "did he just seriously ask me to sniff up his cum from the floor ?"

I use pain/discomfort to guide her into doing it if she doubts to long or resists. To me the amount of pain she can take .. does not matter, I will continue to increase untill she does what I say. Her joy then does not come from the inflicted pain, but from the deep humiliation, the feeling of giving in and doing it ...

I told her to get on all fours, clamped her head between my thights and leaned over her, ripping her panties down .. encompassing and holding her forcefully, fingering her pussy ... when liquids began to flow abundantly, I released her head from between my legs.

"you wanna cum ?"
she nodded, "yes Master"
"then suck My cock and swallow it all, smear your face"

While the last spurt of cum was still gushing from my cock, I grabbed her head. Put it back between my tights. Bend over her back and grasped her ankles firmly ... touching her clit for 5 seconds ... then she erupted .. restrained by my legs and arms ...

Loudest

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Louder

The last day of our kid-less holiday emerged. I decided I wanted to cook a nice dinner for the two of us, but allas, the grocery stores were closed. A dinner for two at a local restaurant overtook the original idea. After taking care of the dogs (walking and feeding) we prepped ourselves to go out. As she was putting on some make-up, I went upstairs to the 'unused' double-bed room. I figured she would not expect any more scenes ...  so wrong ... so wrong.

 

When we arrived the week before, a little tour around the house confronted me with my Dominant streaks. I still look back at myself at times and think, how was this not obvious ... enfin. In all rooms I checked for play posibilities, a small lockable shed, a double-bed room, a seperate sauna room. Scanning for rope attachement points in ceilings, radiator pipes, closets ... and then I noticed a baby crib ...

 

I took the matress out, layed it onto the floor and put the crib upside down ... perfect.

 

Going back downstairs, grabbed a couple of ben-wa balls and hid them in my sunglass-container. Urging subby to hurry up. 

 

As I asked for the check, she said she needed a short restroom break. I gently grabbed her wrist and handed her the sunglass container. I could see her eyes twinkle as she felt the wobbly motion of the balls inside the container. Immediately she knew, this was not the end to the evening. As she returned from the bathrooms, she handed me the empty container. "Good Slut" I whispered.

 

As we entered through the front door I ordered her to get naked. She seemed surprised, and could not focus on undressing. I smacked her ass .."faster bitch". Still no focus .. "FASTER" .. smacking her randomly across her body. And as soon as she was naked, there was a leash on a collar, and nipple clamps with a chain dangling from her big tits. Without any words I pulled her upstairs into the prepped bedroom and commanded her: "GET IN" while lifting the crib.

 

I started groping her arms, belly, tits,  "You are MY cunt", "You will be used as I see fit". As I smacked her with a small hard leather flogger through the openings I made sure she knew, even inside that crib ...

 

"On fours", "close to the end" .. she huddled backwards, pushing out her ass as it pleases me. I groped into her cunt ... dripping ...

 

"YOU FUCKING WET WHORE"

 

she shivered ...

 

 

(read part 2 here) 

Loud

Ordering her to lay down and still. But no need to be quiet. That theme pretty much took the center stage past few days. Making her beg for more. More strikes and more orgasms. Making her ask for my cum on her face. 

 

The way her eyes look at me. Almost disbelief of what is happening.  she is calling out 'i am a whore' .. repeatedly, louder and louder .. while fucking herself with a dildo and jerking me off. She cums again, groaning and moaning .. yelping as I hit her all over with a flat hand.

 

 

her legs hog tied on the front, being drilled with virbators in her ass and eggs on her clit for another set of orgasms, pushing my feet in her face ... she falls asleep panting. Still wearing the cuffs.

 

Somewhere in the middle of the night I release her from her bounds, holding her tightly. Waking her up the next morning by licking her clit and ass .. stopping just before she cums, driving her to the edge, begging me. I make her confess her desire for several cocks to fill her up, and when she is to exhausted to resist I turn her onto her belly and fuck her deliciously tight ass, cumming all over her back ...

 

Holidays, without the kids are rough, loud and very .. very .. hot.

Interrupted

I planned the scene in the afternoon. Both the teens claimed to be out tonight not returning before 2 AM. Yay.

 

Blindfolded, tying her wrists together, to the headboard, and her ankles to the corner of the bed. Leaving her pussy exposed and open. I pushed some geisha balls in, thinking that would be nice when she was squirming around.

 

I flogged her ass, starting gently till the soft pink glow started to show.

 

"Are you ready ?" - "Yes Master" - smacking the flogger onto the left cheek.

"Are you ready ?" - "Yes Master" - smacking the flogger onto the right cheek.

"Are you ready ?" - "Yes Master" - smacking the flogger onto the left cheek.

"Are you ready ?" - "Yes Master" - smacking the flogger onto the right cheek.

 

Leaving her for a couple of seconds to let the impact sink in... Repeating the 4 strikes untill she said "No Master", and continued anyway. Having her squirm and trying to dodge the impact. Her panting and moaning was delicious and I decided to fill the pauses with magic wand, dildo, fucking and wax.

 

 

Wax was a first .. I tested it on myself in the afternoon to check for good distance as the candle was coloured and that could indicate a higher melting temperature. When the first drops hit her back, she shot forward like an animal, yelping. But there was no escape ..

 

Except for the phone that started ringing. My son was panicking. One of his friends hurt his foot by a broken bottle and they were trying to get home. 

 

So ... no aftercare for subby, I released her from her bounds, shoved the toys in a bag, grabbed my first aid kit and jumped into my car. It was a little over 3 AM when I finally returned from the emergency room.

 

Subby was soundly sleeping. Curling up to her I fell asleep a little later... now we will have to start all over again tonight ...

 

 

 



 

 

 

 

Eat sleep work repeat ...

Past week blurred by. I was behind on reading blogs, but I am good now.

I got triggered by the ladder game ancilla_ksst wrote about. I have several of these, one which I mentioned in the comments. And of course circumstances might be like: being fucked, or penetrated with objects, tied up, blindfolded, tortured with clamps or clothing pins and such

• Out of the head three second calculations or ... *smack*. Like 13 x 11, or 27 / 6, not realy hard, if you are able to focus ;-)
• ABC games, where I pick a theme, and she has to comply with words in that theme starting with the given letter.
• Multiply sequences below 10. 3x1,3x2,3x3,3x4 etc
• Childrens songs

Missing or wrong answers yield a swat with a cane or implement, whichever is handy.
I would love to know if you have similar enjoyable games ?


Last week was not a lot of kink play, some forced fucks, mind fucks and rough fucks. A little bit of tears, but no impact play, ropes or that kind of stuff ...

Im glad its Friday ;-)

*tapping the tip of the cane onto the table* ...

Bruisecropping

About a week ago, she showed me a bruise. The first official unintended mark that survived 12 hours. Located on the border off ass-cheek and upper-thigh. I remember .. i hit her there with my fist earlier that week. To make her cum harder, off course.

Later that evening, using the crop, all over her body, when by accident I hit exactly that location. Pillow muffled oooh's and aaaah's yelped  from her mouth. I focussed on that location.

Did I realise I was hitting her on the bruise ?
Why do I like bruisecropping ?

I don't like it for the pain it inflicts, I like it because I see and hear her struggle. If I can't put her on the edge, I am far less satisfied by the scene.

Hmmm *pondering while writing this post*

So its not the fact that she is helpless or surrendered and obeying ? I guess not.

Hmmm *pondering some more*

It is when my cum engulfs her mouth as she sucks my cock deep. And I keep reading on my phone as if nothing happens. And she starts to wonder and doubt, is it right or wrong ? Did he enjoy ? Does he approve ? Does he even notice ?

Hmmm *pondering and rubbing my eyebrows*

I enjoy and get aroused, plotting the cruelty beforehand ...

Hmmm *smirks*

okay, that qualifies as sadist ...