Thursday, July 30, 2015
Yesterday was review and evaluation day. There was mainly one topic on the table. 'Asking for permission to orgasm'. I can not elaborate much on this now, but it became clear that there was an underlying thought pattern that has started to devellop into a direction I don't want. The rule will most likely be suspended for some time as I will search for better balance and development into the desired direction.
My focus was not on the cumming, it was on the 'asking permission', the controll. Her focus was on the orgasm, how to prevent it, untill granted allowed. We have gotten some idea's on the table and will start to play with them, to see what could work.
There was one moment during the family holiday where the kids were out by themselves and we had a couple of hours to ourselves. I did pack tie wraps, a vibrating egg and a small leather flogger (rather stingy). She was bent over the back of the chair, hands locked to the front legs, her ass perking backwards. The egg purring away at her g-spot .. the flogger harshly reddening her skin. There were some yelps, some moans and a rough fuck and deep seeding.
Leaving her panting for 10 minutes, returning and forcing her to cum twice more before tucking her into the sheets for a cuddle-nap ... untill the loud voices of kids, bringing home pizza, and knocking the door woke us up again.
It felt like claiming her ... this past week, to me, clearly indicates I need this thing we do ...
Sunday, July 19, 2015
I was on a business trip to Connecticut. There was no time to play long distance. Travelling, unpacking, eating, meeting, sleeping, repeating. I upgraded to business class on the intercontinental return flight to catch up on sleep.
D/s is suffering .. and this mornings rule breaking makes me growl. She came without permission, and told me she deliberately did so ... but there is no time for corrections now, as we are packing up for a short trip to France. 3 kids, 2 dogs and a load of stuff.
I did hide some toys into the luggage. But I am not sure if this holiday will have any appropriate timeslot for 'play'.
I initially had put vacations as non D/s time. Last revision we took it out. Lets see how things work out ...
Thursday, July 9, 2015
This morning she had a rest day from her exercise plan. When I woke up her ass cheecks were smiling at me ... she was still asleep. I started fucking her in her sleep .. keeping the rythm slow but firm. She woke up and moaned lightly. I knew she had trouble switching but I wanted her to forget the stress, feel owned and used.
I came and pulled out .. leaving for the shower.
When I got downstairs, drinking my so needed espresso subby texted me. Asking approval to use a vibrator. I responded with a yes, and the condition to see it in action while my cum was still dripping out.
It didn't take long for the picture to arrive. When i came back from the short morning walk with the dogs she had just gotten out of the shower.
I waited for her to enter the room, subby thought I would say goodbye. Instead I pushed her onto the bed. Ordering the legs spread, applying the wand and after another orgasm. Hitting her all over with the selfmade crop.
I am in charge.